december 2012

Wednesday, 19 December 2012

the end of year 1

just finished with my last paper for this semester...
and my holiday started...
it's already one year... time flies with light speed huh???

it's 6.06am now...this is the last morning i will be at Cambridge 2302, A3...

actually i am not so sure that i can pass all the subject this semester...
both accounting and advertising also have the chances to fail...
no joke... i kinda worry about it...

at first, i planned to pull back my CGPA this semester... but after all the papers...
and i already know that, i can't...
i don't want such a rubbish CGPA...
i know minimum we have to get 3.0... and my CGPA is now 2.2... can throw already la...
i don't know why i just cannot do well in final???
every time also like this...

anyway, i think this is the longest sem break for me since foundation till now...
but, bahau no job... haizz... i also don't know what can i do during this one month time...
yeah, there is always people that seeking for part timer in this kind of period...
but at least have to work until CNY...

since this is the last day for me to be at kampar in 2012, so i am gonna to make a small summary about my life in kampar during this whole year time...

erm... actually damn a lot of things happened within this 3 semester...
i also lazy to point out one by one...
felt happy, emo, sad, angry, worry on all this things...

3 semester, i still unable to get my first "A" in UTAR...
hope that i can get it in 2013...
things here are not as what i expected before,

the life here, my result, and so on...
things are not as smooth as what i think before...
but still can considered as i had adapted to it already i think...
felt very tired in this year...
too many things happen... seems like the things, the situation here all changing everyday...
everyday also have to worry about those uncertainty...
scare this scare that, worry about this and that...
owh, why so sam fu to live in kampar...
is this a very common problem that face by all university students???
or this is just my problem???
well, i think is because of my own problem...

after one year i studied bachelor of marketing and after so many things happened on me,
i can actually know that i suppose not belong to marketing...
i am not suitable to be a marketer... no joke...
but it's too late for me to know it now...

i am here to thanks all the peoples that helped me in this year...
sorry that i had made a lot of mistake and i am sure that i had accidentally offended a lot of people...
i am here to apologize to all of you...

i hope in next year, there will be some improvements on myself  in study, social , and all the things...
hope that all the things will go well next semester onward...

Result for my Year 1 : Failed

wow...i just realized that this is so long... and i spent so long time on this...

hope that i able to enjoy my holiday and pass all the subjects...

Tuesday, 11 December 2012

blog is still my only choice =(

最近写blog的时间没有这么频密了。。。

我以为我自己开始习惯了没有blog的日子。。。

现在我才发现，原来我错了。。。

因为，此时此刻，我才发现，除了blog，我其实真的没有别的办法来舒缓自己的情绪。。。

除了blog，

我没有人可以倾诉。。。

没有人可以听我说出我的心里话。。。

没有人可以了解我的心情。。。

真的，有时候觉得自己很失败。。。

为什么朋友那么少，为什么知心的朋友那么少。。。

我以为，自己可以独自承受所有的悲伤，不再需要别人的安慰和鼓励。。。

现在，我知道我错了。。。

我不知道，我其实可以找谁？

Wednesday, 5 December 2012

miss that 1 year time

很久都没写blog了。。。
有时候是因为懒惰，大多数是因为不懂要写什么。。。

这几天，跟一位foundation的朋友有回了一些互动。。。
突然间很怀念foundation的时候的我们。。。
虽然说我们都在金宝，可是，我真的没有跟他喝过茶。。。
lol。。。

有时候我会想，虽然我不知道我选的这条路适不适合我。。。
可是，因为选择了这条路，让我遇见了你们。。。

foundation 真的有着我太多太多的回忆。。。
每次跟朋友讲回以前foundation的事，我都可以讲很久。。。
因为，真的有很多回忆。。。

我们一起经历的，有很多。。。
很多的第一次，很多的新体验。。。

foundation sem 1的我，因为认识了你们，才开始改变。。。
过后才会有sem 2, sem 3 的回忆=)
说起来，还真的要感谢basic english 的presentation让我foundation的生活有了乐趣。。。

有时候会想，为什么utar要有这么多分校。。。
搞到我们大家都被逼要分开。。。
每次的gathering都不人齐。。。
而且，时间都很短。。。

在这样的夜晚，我特别怀念，以前的我们 =)