GG Midterm, GG in life (that's me)

it's 2 something now...
i am still in the first chapter of OM...
how could i manage to finish it before the test?
i don't know...

why must all the tests come together?
why must test carry so many marks?
what if i fail my mid-term?

i think i will screw up both of this two tests...

i got no idea about my current condition...
i don't know why i can't motivate myself to do anything ...
seriously, i don't have any mood to do assignments and also to study...
every sem i told myself that i must try my best in study...
every sem i set a target for myself...
but... the problem is... i am just like a "dai zek gong"
only know how to say but don't know how to do...
only know to tell myself that i should get a good result but don't know how to make myself to work hard for the it...

sometimes, i feel that i am so useless...